Often times, we do not even realize that we lack self awareness. It’s difficult to see ourselves in so many ways. Instead, we look outside instead of looking inside. I don’t know how to actually explain it but up until recently, I’ve been living my life without realizing how much self awareness I lacked in general. It was when I started this journey of trying to figure out why certain things in my life are missing such as key friendships, relationship, etc. But I was abundant in other areas of my life.

I knew I wasn’t someone who couldn’t achieve things if I really wanted to. So what was it that was missing? It’s then when I was reading a book where those words sank straight to my heart when I realized, I had abandoned my inner child a long time ago. In order to survive, to push through life and it got me to where I am today. But for it, I sacrificed other areas of my life. That’s when I realized, wow I cannot believe I haven’t realized this all along. I really could not see myself.

When I say I could not see myself, I specifically mean I could not see the fact that I had more healing to do. That when you lack a specific area in your life, it’s because you have more work to do in that area. That probably sounds like common sense, but it’s actually hard to truly see and feel it when you cannot see yourself. Instead, you will wonder why is this not happening for me. But the answer is to go in, deep within. All of the answers lie deep within us, but we do not go deep enough. Actually, I don’t think most of us know how to go deep which is why we should seek guidance from others who have journeyed this before.

In modern society, it’s very normal to get a mentor for work and to help you elevate your career. But we also need to normalize it being normal to get a mentor to elevate your spiritual, emotional, and mental self. Mentors in each area can help get you to where you want to be more quickly. Just like with my career, had it not been for my mentor I would not have doubled my income the way that I did as quickly by myself. She helped encourage and teach me so that I could get there.

This is the same for spiritual and life coaches. I am still going through the journey of seeing myself so that I can heal in the areas that need the most attention right now but I will just say, it is not always easy. Because there are times I get triggered and then my ego comes into place which blinds me. I have to work hard at taking a step back to try and understand why I am getting triggered. And being triggered doesn’t mean I am so angry and yelling at people, no. It just means I have some negative feeling associated with a situation or something, even if it’s on a micro level. It’s telling me something isn’t healed.

Self awareness is the key to begin all healing. And even that alone in itself takes so much work. Because you have to break down your own walls, your own lies, and be willing to admit that you haven’t been seeing yourself for what it truly is. It doesn’t mean it’s who you are, it just means you couldn’t see yourself. Seeing is a gift that allows you to change.